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girls walked on the alleys

# that beautiful girl in the third photo it is miriam! her blog, click here xx

ill, hospital, death, death's daughter

# the rain falls on the out of my window,dark clouds covered to the sky you gives me,i couldn't feels any warm,i felt i'm weak.
there was a big bridge in front of me,my strength are weak,,there is nothing i can do.I breathing in the every smells of teardrops,touching the imaginary of you in the dark nights,i felt i'm weak.

i deceiving myself, placating myself,i blowing up myself, harshly denouncing myself,i couldn't give a shit.
I endured the tired out, helpless for every day,no matter it was got how many days, i was carring it all along.but,i felt i'm weak.

# by me at the night of 8th july

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UDK Berlin SS10

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soon it will be cold enough

# this day finally ended out,,,,,,,,,,

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mist objects

# all day at home, really relax! feel so good and i was let the facial mask to cover my face

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# last night i drunk out, everytime when i have been drunk, i knew it and i also wouldn't to say 'i not drunk!' just like the other people, i wouldn't not to recognized. actually i felt not really good those weeks, i had a badly mood, there was so many things happened, and made me cant breathe and so sad but also very numb! and,,,,,,,,i fall in love with a guy, he's a japanese boy, i feel really happy everytime when he chatted with me, i felt unhappy everytime when he doesn't contact me.,,,,,, god! i'm tired, don't you know? for my dream, i must be really hard to live out in this city, and very work hard! please dont gave me too many sad things! am i fade into you?